its not fare........my baby is turning 4!!!

so 4 years ago tonight i was just finishing up a night of football as westwood had their homecoming game.. i was feeling very pregnant at that point and it didnt help that i had to climb to the very top of the bleachers to sit .. so after a fabulous game of football which by the way westwood won, we headed back to my parents house to get things ready for a yard sale i was putting on the next day. i had gone to my ob that day and i was only dilated to 1 centimeter.. i guess i thought no worry, they were telling me i was 36 weeks so i was like ok hell come when hes ready. well that night as i wound my self down and headed to bed around 230 little did i know what events were about to take place. about 330 i got up to go to one of my routine night visits to the bathroom . i sat down and did my business and at the end of it i was like wow i havent peed that much in forever.. so i really didnt think much of it til i laid back down and i continued to pee.. or for a brief moment thats what i thought was happening. then i thought well maybe my water broke, maybe ill lay here for a few and see what happens.. well i thought about how fast my other labors had gone once my water had broke and thought about my sisters how fast each child they delivered the next came even quicker.. so i nudged aaron and let him know that i thought my water broke.... well he didnt think much of it because all i got out of him was eeeeckkkk. im like ok thanks alot... so i went up 2 flights of stairs to my moms room( we were living there at the time while our first house was being built) so i finally got to her room and by that point my pj bottoms were soaked. i was like mom i think my water broke, she asked are you sure?/ i was like well either that or my bladder broke. so i finally got aaron up and he stood in front of the closet say what should i wear?? lol so by that time is was already 4 am. we were finally out of the house. mesa Lutheran was just 3 blocks away. we got there and i was just starting to feel some contractions. we got up in the room got in thr bed and the nurse checked me i was 7 to 8 centimeters.. it was 415.. i was like i want my epidural. the nurse daid well ill have to call him in, so i dont know about any of you but i always thought there was a dr at the hospital ready to give you your epidural... well theres not.. he finally got there which seemed to be an eternity.at that time it was about 15 til.. i had been screaming and yelling and punching the machines, he got in there i sat up he was fiddling around and i was like the baby is coming right now.. the nurse had me lay back down , she told him to stop that the babies head was right there. so needles to say there was no epidural. i pushed 2 times and mr samuel aaron morris entered into his world. 4:53 am . weighing in at 6lbs 10 oz october 30,.. he is the sweetest most loving little boy i love him soo much and cant imagine my life without him..he has brought such great joy into my life..he loves his brother and sisters dearly and i hate saying it but loves his dad more then anything in this world.. i would have loved to have such a bond with my dad as he has with his.. he is a very strong spirit and i love that heavenly father allowed him to come to me.. i love you sammy!!!HAPPY 4TH BIRTHDAY!!!!

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soo i guess i really dont know how to even start this blog so here it goes. well this last weekend i got a text from a dear friend telling me about a family in our last ward. their 23 month old little boy drowned in an irrigation canal right outside of their home. i was completely blown away and to this day i am still baffled.this whole week it has been on my mind knowing that anything at any time could happen. we have no control at all what soever.i am not good at funerals so i decided i wouldnt go to the funeral but i did go and help set up for the family luncheon. all morning before i left i was trying to make excuses on why i shouldn't go. but i knew i needed to go and give some support and hopefully let the family know that they are in my prayers. i didnt see them which i knew i wouldnt because by the time i got there they were already on their way to the cemetery. but i was able to see many familiar faces. and give a helping hand. my heart goes out to this family. i cant even imagine what they are going threw.. im so glad that they know the "plan" and they are full in faith. they know they will see their precious little boy again. and i am so greatful that i know they will be with their little angel aswell.

how???

so lately i have quite often found my self pondering the question " how can i be a better mother?? any suggestions???

i was tagged!!!

I was asked to take pictures of the following 10 things. But there was a catch — no prepping, primping, or picking up. The point is to see how these things/items/people exist in real life. Take your camera and just go for it.

please keep in mind i just moved into my new home less then a week ago so things are a little out of place.

here it goes

1. our fridge:

2. our closet:

3. kitchen sink:

4. toilet:

5. my favorite shoes:

6. my favorite room:

7.what are my kids doing:sammy was taking a nap and the 3 older kids were at school

8. laundry :allll done!!

9.self portrait:

10.dream vacation:bahamas

and i tag all my blogger buddies that havent done this yet!!! thanks tahmi

sariah 8 years old!!!

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so 8 years ago tonight i was at mesa Lutheran hospital in labor getting ready to welcome my sweet little baby girl sariah.it was a thursday night and i had just gone to the dr that day , i was 36 weeks exactly. my dr checked me and i was 3cm. he said it would be fine that she would be ready. he said that just by that exam i would probably go into labor. i was so excited. so i went home finished packing my bags and then i was off to TARGET to finish my shopping. around 7 or so we decided to go into the hospital. i was told bt several nurses that i would probably go home. my dr wasnt on call so i had to settle for another dr. that dr came in and told me that it was to early and my baby needed to stay in and that he was gonna check me and then send me home. well he checked me and sure enough i was 5cm and my bag of water was bulging. he was like i guess your not going anywhere. i was like duh!! he broke my water (about 11pm) and instantly i was having contractions. i told them i want an epidural. so about an hour later i got that and everything was good. so about 3 am i was like its time to push. so they checked me and i was ready to go . they got everything set up and with a few pushes my beautiful 5lbs 7 oz 19 in healthy baby girl was here. sariah kayleen morris was finally here.october 13, 2000.3;34 am. i had never felt the emotions that i felt at that moment. the amount of love i felt was incomparable. i knew at that moment heavenly father had blessed me and trusted me to take care of this precious angel. these past 8 years have been challenging and adventurous but well worth it. im so grateful to have her as my daughter, she is turning into a beautiful young lady and i am so proud of her. i love you sariah. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

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what does your name mean?? stole this from nikki

What Samantha Means

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic “Type A” personality. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

so i just wanted to say how proud i am of my 3 school aged kids... they all got honor roll for the first quarter.. they r doing so fantastic. also we got sariahs babtism dress yesterday.. hthanks nana we love you soooo much and appreciate all the wonderful things you do for us!!!(pictures soon) i cant get over the fact that she will be 8 in 5 days!!! ughh dont get me started, i cant believe it.

a quick note before i have to get back to crazy life

so its been way crazy around the morris household. the kids are out of shool for 2 weeks and we r trying to pack... we r moving in 2 weeks from today. i feel so overwelmed , i also feel like i have nothing don, it is so hard to pack things when you know you will be using them. i have been so stressed about everything lately. i just wish i knew everything was going to be ok. i guess thats why we have faith. and i know that heavenly father only gives us these trials because he loves us, he already knows that we will get threw them, we have to prove it to ourselves though.. i wish it wasnt that complicated!! please keep our family in your prayers..we would really appreciate them..