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SO i try and keep everything on here i post happy thoughts, but today as i sit her by myself no kids i think of how sucky life is really going for the morris family right now. so we r in the process of putting the House up for a short sell so we don't end up foreclosing. a couple of months ago Aaron and i decided that when our payments go up to 1900 a month we r NOT going to stay, the mortgage company doesn't want to help so i said pretty much peace out then.we stopped making the payment just 3 months ago. you would think that they would want to try and do any and everything they possibly could to help you stay in your home, but no that is not the case. we have found several homes in our community for rent that are 1,000sq ft bigger and 300 dollars less then what we've been paying for the last 3 years. so why would we wanna stay here and pay 2,000 a month. sorry not gonna happen.i wish we would have planned things a little differently then what we had, I'm also sick of putting a happy face on when indeed i am not happy right now. i feel like my whole world has been flipped upside down. and i feel for my children. i want the world for them and i feel like i am letting them down. hopefully this whole situation will be a new beginning for all of us.